Assalammualaikum to the new beginnings.

Assalammualaikum to the new beginnings.

Last night, i figure up something ;

Kenapa eh kena rasa takut kalau kita tak good enough?
Kenapa rasa macam ada obligation untuk puaskan hati semua orang.

I really should've learn to control myself.

Kenapa tak kita just buat yang terbaik, kemudian serahkan semua pada Tuhan?

Bila dengan family , friends or whomever yang kita kenal.
When it comes to some conflict,we do our best, our 200%, and serahkan balik semuanya pada Dia.

Kita belajar, serahkan semua pada Tuhan, then kita tak akan rasa takut dah,

Sebab bagi kita , that is the best, tapi kalau Tuhan kata sebaliknya, itu sebenarnya yang super the best untuk kita. Why? Sebab Allah punya aturan lagi cantik.

So, next step, learn , learn to give my all, my very best and then leave everything to Allah.

Bismillah.

Tuhan aku rayu, berikan baik sangka.

It's been a year now.

I'm still holding on, too tight that sometimes it hurts.

I hope this is what i want, the reason why im still here.

Bila kita bagi , tapi rasa tak pernah cukup.
Bila kita berubah , tapi rasa tak dihargai.
Bila akhirnya tetap kita yang salah.

Bila kita bukanlah pilihan yang pasti.

I feel useless, i feel betrayed. 

I tried so hard, but the memories keep on knocking my door.
Late night tears, too much thought that its suffocating.

Tuhan aku rayu, berikan baik sangka.
Aku lemas dengan tanggapan sendiri yang tiada berkesudahan.

Berikan cahaya, mungkin gelap hati ini hingga aku ragu untuk berikan kemaafan pada yang menyakiti.

Engkau yang Maha Pengampun lagi Maha Penyayang, siapalah aku yang hanya manusia biasa tak lari dari dosa.

Tuhan aku rayu, berikan baik sangka.
Tuhan aku rayu, cukupkanlah hanya Engkau bagiku.

music and speed.

have you ever been so frustrated because you really want that something but you know you could not have it?

because the decision is life decision.

you want to be all you wanted to be, but you know you just cant.

people keep on saying, be what you what to be, dare to be different.

but then, how you are suppose to combine all the thing you want in your life and just be successful and rich and all?

i have responsibilities, everyone have. 

i have to keep that in mind. 

Joy

Writings do help to improve my emotion, like seriously, i loveeeeeeeeeee the positive vibes meliar liar merayap dalam diri sendiri.

and music, of course.

25th Feb huh? exactly 4 months from now, dah nak grad dah, honestly, i feel scared, sikit lah, ke banyak , entah lah.

i just hope everything will be awesome, for me and my friends.

Ya Allah, ease our journey.

Semoga nanti semua dapat capai impian.

Doesnt it feels good? Berjaya sama-sama.

I hope one fine day, kiteorg semua tengah duduk melepak sama sama sharing happiness , loveeee and success together, can't wait for that day to come.

The joy, when shared is indescribable.
Faces of happiness and positive vibes merata-rata.

Feeling dia, indah.

Pernah rasa?

:)

20cent of my thought.

If two people are not meant to be together after so long,  people always said, how wasted all their time spent together.

honestly , i dont really think so.

even if it is a broken marriage.

It could be that those two people really have good time together ( yes, of course with rainbow unicorn ups and hell a lot of down ) but then,after trying so hard, they decide and agree that the relationship should end because they just dont have the chemistry.

they dont waste their time, they just took time to discover what really are the best for them.

well at least based on my opinion la, i know some would just said it still a wasted time.
but then, we dont hold the future, how are we suppose to know what is the best for us if we dont give it a try?

i think its matured.

to decide and to accept.

for me love doesnt always mean togetherness.

love is subjective, love can meant a lot of thing, and doesnt mean when two people decide to not be together they stop loving each other, it just, maybe, they love what they once had and decide it should end with another kind of love :)  

it hurts, but you know, any form of love ( read : friends , family, holiday, nature, hobbies ) is the best medicine for a brokenhearted.

we just need to learn to accept and not be a judge of other people's life.