Friday, January 23, 2015


I actually cried semalam bila sesat dekat KL.

Tak nak pun pergi KL, nak pergi Klang, tapi salah jalan, end up sesat kat KL and Waze make me more miserable, everytime waze refresh balik, kata salah jalan, i cried harder, sambil menyanyi kuat kuat dalam kereta. Boleh bayangkan tak over dia macam mana, hahaha.

It's dark, the road are busy with people yang nak balik kerja, dah dekat 3 jam dlm kereta, and i am not familiar at all with the places. It was a lot of U-turn, T-junction, and traffic lite and none of them are doing me good.

At some point, i just want to find nearby hotel, have my sleep , then asked people to pick me up.

I even asked myself, what if i give up? Drama sangat, sebab people sesat all the time, kan? Ke aku je sesat teruk pastu nangis, hahaha.

Because it is so frustrating, bayangkan, waze kata kau straight je, 15km nnt kau akan jumpa exit, you are super excited sebab, ye lah, this nightmare will end soon, tapi it was a hell long of 15km.  instead of straight, sebenarnya ada cabang kiri ke kanan, tp waze kata straight so kau terpaksa buat pilihan, pastu salah, kalau sekali takpe, ni 4 5 kali. Kau rasa bengang dengan waze, tp kau kena hadap jugak sebab tu je lah harapan, kalau tak, mau ke JB aku. hahaha.

But, that is life kan?

every path we choose, don't expect to be familiar,bear in mind it is not a straight easy road and it is definitely not in your comfort zone, it will make you break, both physically and mentally, yes, you can cried, but don't you ever give up.


Monday, January 12, 2015

6 months to go.

Enam bulan lagi, i am closer to my dreams. 
Nak grad dah hoi ! 

Aku baca balik content blog blog ni, gilaa, nak menitik air mata.

Hahahahaha, apa emo sangat aku ni dulu.
But, somehow it reminds me of all the thing i've been through, the choices and all the people in it. 

One thing for sure, people do come and go.

and i think its kinda personal, all the writings. 

I am a happy person actually, a happy person yang kurang pandai sikit bergaul dengan manusia, hahahahaha. 

and i've noticed, last week is one of a hell week for me. Its like " Hello, this week ialah pertandingan siapa nak sakitkan hati Ryu , come and join. " 

A lot of secret revealed, tears, and backstabber and betrayal, tapi tapi tapi, its funny though, i didnt really talk about it. I just cried,berbaldi baldi. Then, sorted my friend list, in my life la, not in facebook. 

but to most of it, i did nothing. i just fix anything that i think worth fixing, and then the rest i just let it. Some dont even know i knew what they did, lol.

The pain is still there,no kidding. but i just dont think its worth fixing. 

i guess its true, people just get stronger. 

and i learn, some thing , in our life *tarik nafas* are meant to be broken.